So, I spent the rest of yesterday evening with my partner and son, kind of just enjoying my life. Despite the serious Post-Partum Depression and the recurrent haunting from the demons of my past, I find myself in a place of bittersweet contentment. I may head into town on my own today – I may not. I am just kind of looking to see if there is anything there that I might actually want. More specifically – that is not in the Farmer’s Market. Saturday Market goods like lotions, jewelry, clothing and even henna tattoos are fun and all, but expensive. I have to budget better next month. I mean on the $400 I got this month I did pretty well.
3 packs of cigarettes
A Diaper Pail
A box of refills for said pail
A bottle warmer
A box of breast milk storage bags for once I get my milk flowing sufficiently
A Medela In-Style Electric Double Breast Pump
Plenty of little bits of personal spoiling
Ready-To-Eat Formula for the baby
Enough Diapers to last the rest of the month
and a beautiful purple rose for my partner
among a few minor things.
I have $36 in cash on my card and $30 on the table. And some in Food Stamps, So over all I have done well.